these words that penetrate deeper then you can ever understand
like vicious poison they enter my veins
embracing every single part of my body
entering my fragile heart that has already endured so much more than others
what do i do
tears overwhelming my face
nothing stops the tears
this sadness engulfs my every being
i try to swim away
to climb away
yet here i stay
trapped
sinking further and further
wishing for a friend to release a rope
to help me
just pull me out of this
but what is a friend
nothing but disappointments
only come around when it conveniences em
how much more can i take
spiraling
tumbling
down a whirl wind of endless mindless bullshit
wanting someone to just listen
and not throw stuff in my face
make me feel worse
words slice threw my soul never to be repaired again
amongst the billions of other scars that are covered up
hidden from the public
from family
from these fake as friends
what is love when the one you love doesn't want to understand
doesn't try to
doesn't want to
doesn't seem to listen to your cries
hopeless
this vicious poison has engulfed me
loneliness so overwhelming
lost
lost Lil girl once again
trapped in my own emotional box
my own emotional turmoil
oh vicious poison i am not thankful of you
how do i rid this all
how do i surpass all this
feeling like the walls are closing in
like every step forward is 100 backwards
insecurities eating away at me as well
what to do
no one to turn to
no one understand
oh vicious poison of words
watch what u say to fragile soul like me
i can easily break like a egg shell
no one understands
thank you vicious poison for making everything that much less more difficult...
x, Vanessa
I know it's hard, sometimes life throws us things we can't handle, and we end up drowning in our own doubt. God has a plan for you, sometimes it may not be what you want it to be, but there's a reason for his logic. I wish I can be there to help you every step of the way hun, but unfortunately what's app, and phone calls will have to do. love you lots!
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