Chocolate chip fudge brownie Cookie Recipe

Need a chocolate fix? This cookie is for you chocolate lovers like me! Hope you enjoy the recipe xo

2 sticks of butter soft

1 1/4 cup of sugar 

1/2 cup of cocoa powder

2 1/4 cup flour

1/4 tsp salt (I use sea salt)

1 tsp of baking powder 

2 large eggs

Mix all dry ingredients then the soft butter. The add one egg mix then add another egg. I added a cup of chocolate chips and mixed again. 

Ball up into lil balls and press down 

Bake at 350 for 10/15 mins 

They will be soft and gooey and oh so delicious! Enjoy 

Free app must have!

I came across this free app for apple users and want to share it with my readers. It's called 12 days of gifts feel free to download and see what apple gives you! It can give you music, books and even other free apps! Take care and have a happy New Years! 

Snappi dipes review

I am so honored to review this Instagram and online shop called snappi dipes. If you're curious about their shop head over to the site www.snappidipes.com or their Instagram snappidipes. I was sent this adorable cloth diaper with 2 bamboo inserts. I have yet to have her try a bamboo inserts cloth diaper so this was our first. The texture is super soft of the snappi dipes. I especially love that inside it's grey so no showing of stains but usually these diapers don't stain anyways if washed correctly. I have already washed it twice and used it twice to give my honest opinion. My baby is 2 months old and is a very extreme wetter. I usually have to change her in the middle of her naps so it won't soak. So glad that it didn't happen with the Snappi Dipes! She was comftorable and didn't whine as she usually does. She seemed to have enjoyed her nap in em and didn't even soak threw. Bare in mind I used the 2 bamboo liners sent with the cloth diaper. Now do I recommend this cloth diaper? My answer is flat out YES! I enjoyed the textured of it and the pattern and my baby was dry so I will definitely purchase from them as soon as I can! I usually am a prefolds mommy but oh my goodness this cloth diaper is fab. I have nothing but high hopes in this cloth diaper and that's very hard to find. I have 6 Charlie bananas and that diaper from snappi dipes puts those diapers to shame! So if you're in the market for some good quality and simply adorable cloth diapers head on over to that shop and you won't be disappointed because I surely wasn't. Feel free to drop any comments or questions about my experience. Thank you for taking the time in sending me and giving me the honors to review your product snappi dipes. 

Xo, Vanessa 

When I received it before I striped it. 

How adorable was the pattern? Amazing and she was comftorable the whole entire time.

Head on over to www.snappidipes.com they have bundles, disposable liners and inserts. 

Chocolate chocolate chip cake -recipe

Every girl has her little chocolate fits, I know I sure did last night. So I decided to make a chocolate chocolate chip cake and it was oh so delicious. Here's the recipe I found and enjoy xo!

Chocolate cake mix: 

1 cup flour 

1 cup sugar 

1/4 cup cocoa powder 

1 tsp of baking powder

1/4 tsp of baking soda

1/4 tsp salt 

3/4 cup of milk 

1/4 cup of butter softened

1/2 tsp of vanilla

1 egg

Mix all dry ingredients first and then the rest. 

Bake at 350 for 45 mins

Enjoy 

Creamy potato soup- savory Sunday

It's that time again, it's savory Sunday! Which means a brand new recipe by yours truly. I tend to search all the time for recipes and then end up doing my own take on it cuz yes I'm so adventurous (giggles). This Sunday I'm featuring the creamy potato soup cause boy it's cold outside! It's like winter creeped up and said hello with zero warning. Here it is below and enjoy! Xo

Ingredients: 

3 cups chicken broth

1 cup finely chopped onions

4 tablespoons of flour

4 tbsp of butter

Salt and pepper to taste 

2 cups milk

4 medium size potatoes cut small

Shredded cheddar cheese

Process: 

Let the broth and potatoes cook with the onions salt and pepper. 

Once potatoes are cooked add the flour  and butter and milk.

I took a whisk to help de-clump the flour. 

I added some shredded sharp cheese to it too to make it extra cheesy. 

Serve and enjoy 

The mommy milk lactation cookie recipe

I'm a breast feeding mom. I wanted something that will help keep my milk supply up plus be healthy for me so my milk can be even more healthier for baby. If you're a breast fed dint mommy I highly recommend you to make this cookie. There's tons of other recipes and ways you can do it. This is the version I enjoyed best for myself. Make a batch freeze half and bake the other half. Try to eat two cookies a day :) enjoy the recipe xo

The ultimate mommy milk cookie recipe 

1 1/2 cup flour (whole wheat or regular)

1 3/4 cup of oats (not the instant one)

1 tsp baking soda 

1tsp salt

1 cup flax seed

3/4 cups of peanut butter

3 tablespoons of yeast (brewers)

1/3 cup of water

1 tsp cinnamon 

1/2 cup sugar

1/2 cup brown sugar (I used light brown)

2 tsp vanilla (you can even use almond)

2 large eggs (I used organic)

2 cups of chocolate chips

And 1 cup nuts of your choice but I didn't add that to mine

Pre heat oven to 350

Combine flour, baking soda, sienna on and salt in one bowl

In another larger bowl beat peanut butter, butter, sugar (both of em) vanilla and yeast, flax seed and water till creamy 

Mix in eggs.

Gradually beat in flour mixture from the first bowl 

Mix in chocolate chips and nuts if you opted to use nuts as well

Add oats slowly 

Make em into balls 

(We had to mix it with our hands cuz the batter was a but too tough for a whisk and I don't have a mixer)

Place balls onto baking sheet and press down a bit with a fork. 

Bake for 12 mins. 

I baked enough for a few days cuz I'll be eating two a day. And froze the other batch I didn't use for when I run out. 

Let me know if you tried it. God bless xo

That's what they will look like ;) 

Holiday wreath making at my church

Paster Tim prayers before crafting.

My church held a wonderful craft even to make a holiday wreath. I was super excited to be around other crafters and even learn! I was able to learn 2 different flower felt techniques that I can later use on my girls bows yay! I been had in mind to make one but this one I will def put in my window and wait till you see the end results of my winter holiday display (photos later down the line). I really enjoyed myself and even the kids made their own lil Christmas crafts enjoy the photos. Xo

All assembled. :)

God bless and stay tuned for more holiday blogs cuz it's that time of year! 

poem- vicious poison

these words that penetrate deeper then you can ever understand

like vicious poison they enter my veins

embracing every single part of my body 

entering my fragile heart that has already endured so much more than others

what do i do 

tears overwhelming my face

nothing stops the tears

this sadness engulfs my every being

i try to swim away 

to climb away 

yet here i stay 

trapped

sinking further and further

wishing for a friend to release a rope 

to help me 

just pull me out of this 

but what is a friend

nothing but disappointments

only come around when it conveniences em 

how much more can i take 

spiraling 

tumbling 

down a whirl wind of endless mindless bullshit

wanting someone to just listen 

and not throw stuff in my face

make me feel worse

words slice threw my soul never to be repaired again

amongst the billions of other scars that are covered up 

hidden from the public 

from family 

from these fake as friends

what is love when the one you love doesn't want to understand

doesn't try to 

doesn't want to 

doesn't seem to listen to your cries

hopeless 

this vicious poison has engulfed me 

loneliness so overwhelming

lost

lost Lil girl once again

trapped in my own emotional box

my own emotional turmoil

oh vicious poison i am not thankful of you

how do i rid this all 

how do i surpass all this 

feeling like the walls are closing in 

like every step forward is 100 backwards

insecurities eating away at me as well

what to do 

no one to turn to 

no one understand 

oh vicious poison of words 

watch what u say to fragile soul like me 

i can easily break like a egg shell

no one understands 

thank you vicious poison for making everything that much less more difficult...

x, Vanessa 

My first week with cloth diapers

I had my beautiful little miracle on october 27th. She finally got to come home with us on November the 1st. I am excited to share with you all my first week of my experience with cloth diapers with her. The first day I was like oh man what did I get into but then after that I got the hang of it after about 15 diaper changes in a day. I couldn't believe it myself that I was really adament to continue and to not get discouraged no matter how many times she had the poo storms (thats what we call em now). First off if you want to consider it please please please do your research on what would work best for you. My research went from PINTEREST and to a number of blogs that gave tons of tips. Then i went to YOUTUBE and really viewed as many videos on how to cloth diaper (prefolds) and the tips that the mommy's on there gave which were really useful. My husband likes the pockets AIO (all in ones) because its easier for him to handle (of course!). I prefer the prefolds with the thirstees covers because I like the folding techniques. I use the charlie banana bamboo disposable flushable liners to place em in the cloth for easy clean up of the poo (trust i highly recommend for you to get these flushable liners!) Everyone is different so buy both if you're interested and see which works best for you. I have 30 prefolds with 8 covers. I have 3 snappies and have ordered some cloth diaper pins that still havent arrived. I have 6 charlie banana's size xs which wont fit her soon and I have 8 regular all in one pockets which i will be needing more very soon and hope to have a massive stash of em because the colors are simply cute. I have a bucket for the dirty cloths filled with water and I let them soak till the next day when thats when I wash em. You can wash em every other day depending on how big the stash you have on hand. Since my baby breast feeds I use half my stash and wash the other half thats dirty. DO NOT DRY IN DRYER! Hang dry em always if not you will ruin em. I use the arm and hammer sensitive or the ALL detergent clear and free. Below are the photos I've taken of the whole experience. I'm by far no expert and I am still learning but I am happy with my decision and I am here sharing my experience with you all. xo.

i prefer this method above

this type of method didnt work for me because it leaked its better to wrap em around the baby

these are what all in ones pockets look like

 i loved this picture so had to add it

this is what a normal laundry of cloth diaper looks like from a day of use

after soaking in the bucket for a night i dump it in the washer sink rinse em again and throw it in the wash

these are the two detergents that i use (i also coupon so they are practically free)

thats all for now hope i helped xo.

Free Friday apps! iPad and iPhone

Free Fridays only.

These are the apps I've downloaded for the kids. Every month or two weeks I see if they get bored with apps and switch em up.

Enjoy and they are only free on Friday so get em now!

Below is the screen shot of my kids section 

Enjoy and please share the post on Facebook :) 

Featured app of the week. iPad only.

Many parents feel frustrated with math. I came across this app for the iPad and wanted to help out you fellow mommies. Let me know how you like it and how your kids react to the learning app. I like to have my kids play learning apps in their spare time. Learning should be fun but also done on a regular basis. Enjoy and please leave feedback. 

It's free!! So get it now! Xo

Kaylee's Journey- my labor and delivery story

October 26 I was scheduled to be induced due to issues I was having that I won't go into details with because it is personal. 

It was a cold fall morning and as we drove to the hospital I was excited and nervous. The past 9 months were hard and was beyond different than my other three children.

The doctor checked me and I still hadn't dilated so she explained my cons to the induction yet we went with it to end my suffering due to fibromyalgia and herniated disk.

18 hours of an up and down roller coaster. It was a very devastating ride that I wish never to go on again or wish it upon anyone else. I had dilated to 6 cm when suddenly her heart began dropping. They took off the pitocin had me change positions and stopped the epidural. Then they had me on oxygen without removing it because my oxygen level got dangerously low and I felt like an elephant sat on my chest. 

Around 1 am they said let's get ready to push. Something in me felt wrong. I told the nurse something's wrong. The doctor persisted I push because it was time but yet I was severely exhausted and couldn't really catch my breath. 

I pushed and pushed and baby wouldn't crown or come down. 

I began to cry as I heard her heart stop several times and they told me last try to push if you don't do it we have to do a c section because baby is in danger. I said she's not going to come I'm pushing something's wrong. 

I looked at Steven with tears and just wept and told him let them save her. 

They wheeled me off running because baby heart dropped and stopped and would go then stop. 

As they prepped me for the c section I felt a cloud over me, a misty cloud. 

I suddenly lost every lil bit of strength I had. I said where's Steven? The nurse rubbed my head and said he's in his way. 

Little did I know while he got prepped to come into the operating room my daughter was struggling to live and he was struggling to stay strong and hoping he didn't lose his girls.

As they proceeded to open me up I felt super cold, nothing the nurse did even with a warmer kept me warm. 

Kaylee didn't cry when they pulled her out. 

The cord was wrapped tightly around her neck.

My doctor said that explains everything. 

Steven stared into my eyes and said she's out. I was like what she means that explains it, what is she talking about why isn't she crying? 

They put her on the table and everything got so foggy I just couldn't focus. 

I couldn't bare to turn my head and hear that she wasn't crying so I just stared off into the fog and wanted to slip into. I whispered please god let her cry.

I closed my eyes and I cried and suddenly my baby girl cried, and I heard her and every hopeless feeling that was about to engulf me just vanished, 

I turned my head and saw her long arms and legs moving about, and he looked at me from where she was and he said she's beautiful you did it babe.

Weighing in at 7 lbs my baby was here. Her brush with death left and so did the foggy cloud. 

Little did I know I had lost 1/3 of my blood. 

They continued to examine her and didn't bring her to me. They notified him that she needed to go to the nicu.

I felt my heart suddenly get heavy and that fog come rolling in again. They brought her over to me I gave her a kiss and off she went to continue her battle while I fought my own.

He stood by me and comforted me. I felt strange on so many different levels of emotions I couldn't even grasp hold of an emotion.

As they took me into recovery I just wanted to see my baby. I had to wait two hours to visit her in the nicu for only a few minutes. I wouldn't see her again for another 12 hours. 

Those 12 hours were the longest because that's when they notified us about the cord and how she swallowed some of her own feces that had affected her breathing.

The following three days she struggled to transition from womb breathing to real air breathing. Seeing my baby that sick the first day felt like my world tumbled but I couldn't lose faith nor hope. I started the has tag on my Instagram #prayersforkayreyes. Seeing only lil results from fellow followers and friends was also an emotional toll. 

No one knew why I asked for this because it was all too soon to say.

I didn't want to announce anything then have to announce bad news to anyone so I didn't post her photos into after her first day of grave danger and we knew she was off oxygen and was going to survive. 

I never lost hope in kaylee. I stood by her side and regardless of having had surgery 12 hours from having I managed to be with her regardless of my pain, regardless of my exhaustion. I refused to not let her see or feel my love. 

The second day was hard, they had out her on a feeding tube threw her nose. I felt like why must she go threw more? I was angry because that delayed her release out of the nicu with all her results coming back well, seeing her with more wires was not what I needed to see.

Seeing her smile and hearing her cry was more than enough to fuel the energy I needed despite losing so much blood that they wanted to give me a blood transfusion yet I refused because I knew it would just take more time away from her. 

The third day I guess she got tired of being weak that she took it upon herself to pull the feeding tube off. They gave her a bottle and she proved em wrong by devouring it. And now I know that she's just as much a fighter as me! 

My breathing will never be the same I lost ten percent of it, my blood will recuperate with a good diet and gods help. Yet my happiness has tripled in size because god let my baby girl live and let me live as well to be the perfect mother and best mother for her. 

This was our journey. Our story.... Kaylee and mommy, fighters together till the end. 

Before  everything took a toll for the worse

How she looked after being born and her brush with death.

12 hours later!

Second day another turn 

Third day fully recovered. With much prayers and mommy never leaving her side. 

Thank you all for reading our story and for taking the time to get to know US. 

Educational learning sites

Below I have found these educational sites to help children instead of them spending time on games that doesn't focus on learning. I am all about letting them spend time on the computer as long as its strickly educational. Enjoy these sites and let your kids learn, play and have fun all at once. xo


www.multiplication.com
www.fun4thebrain.com
www.abcya.com

Savory Saturday- donut muffins and lasagna rolls recipes

Even despite the gloomy weather I opted off a hearty meal that wasn't in the crockpot. Shockingly I wanted to give the crockpot a break today. So I had some left over ground meat that I had made empanadas  with so I decided why not lasagna rolls? Good choice I might add because it was very quick and easy. 

I out the sauce with three spoonfuls of ricotta and blended it into the meat and warmed it all. My kids are picky with cheese so if they don't see it they don't know it's there. 

Then I had boiled the lasagna pasta and waited until cool so I can roll. I used just a spoon spread on the pasta and some cheddar cheese and rolled which was easy but don't put too much cuz then it will make a mess and leak out. 

Line the bottom of the casserole dish with the sauce and place rolls on top. Put sauce and cheese on top and bake in oven for 15/20 mins at 375

Now we get to what I made for dessert which is the donut muffins. Oh yum these were a big hit! 

Dough:

1/2 cup sugar 

1/4 butter melted

1/4 nutmeg

1/2 cup milk

1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract 

1 teaspoon baking powder

1 cup flour

Mix the sugar, melted butter and nutmeg. 

Then add the rest and mix well. 

Place in a muffin tin which I lined with baking cups.

Oven at 375 for 15 mins. 

Then on top melt butter and sprinkle cinnamon sugar on top. 

Enjoy xo

Diy shirt scarf kids version

My daughter and son both outgrew a few tees so my lil crafty self saw on Pinterest the adult version and thought why not for her too? So here's my three samples that I created for her and she simply loves em. Remember to pull and stretch and to add a bit of accent to it to make it pop.

That's my favorite one these are the other two I experimented with